So I started wondering "Where's my invite? What have I done to alienate all these people? They don't even call me anymore." Then it starts into a downward spiral from there: "Am I not cool enough? Is it cause I'm bossy and annoying? Is it cause they don't like me anymore?" And from there the inevitable "Nobody likes me. Everybody hates me. I'm going to the garden to eat worms." But when I get there even the worms aren't around!
Then I realized that it wasn't that my friends have forgotten me. It's that I FORGOT THEM. If I want people to hang out with I should call them. Sure I've put the generic "let's meet at the park for lunch" out there on FB for everyone, but I haven't talked to anyone.
Even my best friend. I've completely ignored her for a while. Why? I have no idea! She didn't do anything to me, she's always been there for me. If I called her up right now and said "Hey let's do lunch" she would probably be here at noon.
The truth is I'm just plain selfish. I want people to want to hang out with me enough that THEY'LL go out of their way to ask ME. But if you think about it look at what I've been posting on FB. "Can anyone help me? What can you do for me?"
So with apologies to my many friends, okay ALL my friends, I'll try to be a better friend.
I like you! Of course I do!
ReplyDeleteHave you been to goodreads.com? That is where I post my books I have read and get new ideas (I know, I read waaaaaay too much, too! But it keeps me sane. I just have to learn how to limit my reading time.).
Brit, it sounds like you and I are in the same boat! I've been having a lot of those same feelings lately....and I've also been pretty busy with other things in my life.
ReplyDeleteI just want you to know that I think you are a wonderful woman and a great friend! <3